Headspace

First of all, I haven't been late for school for the whole of January (so far) and there's actually a kind of satisfaction I'm getting from it. The inner Asian is finally making an appearance. Wow.

Secondly, I'm finally getting some kind of money outside of my monthly allowance?! I mean, the amount that I'll receive from tutoring is really little since I'm just tutoring one child at the moment, but it's something and I earned it. It feels so good to know that you've earned something. Hopefully, I soon won't have to ask my parents for money anymore. I've honestly always hated doing that.

Lastly, I'm learning not to care so much about people who are (very obviously) not going to stay in my life. I'm thankful for the opportunity to have gone through being bitched about by people I'd considered my friends and then learn that I am still able to genuinely want to be nice to instigators of said situation. I'm not sure what's this thing with poly and temporary friends but it's taught me to let go of people so fast it's scary. Like, I am now capable of going from "hey you're my friend and a good person and I like you" to "fuck this shit I'm out" in about 5 seconds. It's a little harsh, I'll admit, but it's saved me from so much heartache and tears from crying myself to sleep. Also, I don't have to spend my time worrying about what they think of me and focus on things that actually matter instead. 

So, yeah, that's how 2016 is starting out for me. 

Being more responsible, learning to adult(???), and learning to let go. :)

Well, then there's the graduation in May and the "what are you gonna do with your life now" conversations will intensify. I already know what I want to study so, choosing what to do won't be the difficult part. It's paying for it that'll be kinda tough.

My dad may or may not be paying for my university fees but, whatever he chooses, I will get my degree in Psychology even if I have to take a bank loan for it. If that happens, I'll even be able to say "I paid for my university education", which honestly sounds like a pretty good achievement! 

There's so much that'll happen before I graduate, and so much that'll happen after, and I am a little scared but everything has always turned out alright. So, I'm just gonna not stress so much about something as unpredictable as my future and trust that wherever God places me, it's gonna be good. :)